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The Pain of Healing; Two Healers Talk on a Mountaintop
The healing journey is painful, for the ultimate goal of feeling the joy. This is my belief. And some days, I need reassurance. Healers don’t take their job lightly, but sometimes they need to be reminded they’re on the right path.
“Why does it seem like the more I practice this awareness thing, the more I suffer?” I asked a fellow healer friend one day as I followed him down the Billy Goat Trail. The deep conversations are something I often crave; a mirror to gaze into to help me with the clarity I seek.
“Well, maybe you’re meant to go deeper?” He suggested. “Maybe the deeper suffering also means deeper joy.”
“When you numb the pain, you also numb the joy.” Brene Brown
“Yeah but…” I stopped myself. Funny how you always but yourself when you’re about to make an excuse for not taking responsibility for your life.
“Okay,” I said instead. “Then how do I know for sure that it’s all going to be worth it? That I’m not going to get stuck in that pit once I decide to go there and wallow in it in the name of healing?”
“Have you ever been so stuck you didn’t pull yourself back out?” He asked.
“No,” I answered.
